Apparition

Is it fair to give someone two deaths,
to kill them twice?
For that is what I have done,
multiple times over.
I don’t like some characters,
so I remove them from my plot.
I fear an eventual loss,
so I execute them to an early grave.

I have suffered their deaths so that when the obituaries come,

I will have no more tears to cry, no ounce of shock.

I have cut loose the rope that binds us,
so when they fall, I do not go with them.
From up here, the wind can dry my tears
and drown out the cries of my sorrow.
Down below, the earth is too barren
to provide me any refuge from the barrage of pain.

Is this crossbow a weapon of defense?
Or have I carefully sniped any suspects before they can become threats?

Is there a right way to take away a life?

But worse,

these zombies still exist, more than ghosts,
no more breathing air into my life,
yet up and walking in a shared world all the same.
I cannot cut them down more than I have.
they are the living dead, and they bring fresh nightmares.
My weapons are no good against them,
there is no mountain I can climb in escape,

and I have already attempted to bury them with silence.

How many more will fall due to my hand, and yet walk due to my inability to forget.

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Just Another Music Monday

My love affair with Indie Rock will never end – here are some tunes from the November Playlist that I have been dying to share….just slacking off in the generosity department apparently (that and writing in general…tsk tsk).

One of my favourite bands, Brick + Mortar have another stellar (or Hollow?) tune

A hollow tune, within the fire.
I feel them breathe, so uninspired.
My broken hands my weary bones,
I sit my words beside my throne.
You’re not alone. I’m not alone. (Brick + Mortar)

I crank this song by Bad Suns every time I’m driving

Grab my bag and bring me into the ocean, take my love and run
The tide rolls in void of all emotion, take my love
Oh, break my heart, disintegrated what would be
Yeah, take my love, you might as well listen to me (Bad Suns)

Love the warmth in Catey Shaw’s voice

and the roof that I’m standing on feels like an airplane
city streets below me moving far away
what I wouldn’t give to be there now
I’ll find my way to you somehow (Catey Shaw)

One of my other favourite songs right now by Mother Mother

How’d I ever get so off my rocks?
How’d I ever get so lost
Everybody out there on the job, but not me oh no
How’d I ever get so indiscreet, how’d I ever get so freakly
Everybody out there on a leash
But not me (Mother Mother)

This song speaks for itself

What you don’t know won’t hurt you, yeah
Ignorance is bliss
I’m a happy idiot
Waving at cars.
I’m gonna bang my head to the wall
‘Till I feel like nothing at all
I’m a happy idiot
To keep my mind off you. (TV On the Radio)

Really enjoying this jam by Adam French – even in its repetitiveness

I never asked, but I always wondered
just why you’re here
when there’s so much more to life (Adam French)